Finally....

Wow it has been awhile since I have posted here. As usual with my summers I have no free time.  I am a little late posting this, mainly because of the amount of homework that I have had to do with my quarter thus far.  Many of you probably already know that my wife and I are expecting and back in late July we finally found out the sex of the baby. Now before I go telling it, I want to let you all know how things let up to this moment.

Some of you might have known that my wife got pregnant late last year and we were excited about it.  However it wasn't meant to be as she had a miscarriage right after Christmas.  Now my wife was devastated by having the miscarriage, which is understandable, but for me, I didn't really know what to say or feel. I knew in my heart that this baby would never have to experience the pain and suffering of this world and the baby knows what perfect love is already. What I couldn't stop thinking about was maybe God was teaching us this lesson since we tried to take matters into our own hands.

So what did we do?  you ask. Well being that we have two daughters (and don't get me wrong, I love my daughters with my whole heart and would never trade that for anything) We both really wanted  a son, and I can definitely tell you that I wanted a son more then my wife did.  Well my wife got around to searching the internet for different ways and methods to help conceive a boy and we tried them out. Next thing we know she was pregnant, and I felt pretty good that we might be having a son.  Well that obviously wasn't the case.  After the miscarriage though it definitely changed my perspective. I knew that I didn't want to try those methods again, and if God felt like I was ready for a son, then I knew I had to trust in him if I was meant to have a son.

Fast- forward a few months and bam my wife was pregnant again, but this time we didn't try any methods.  Of course before we found out the sex of the baby the running joke was we were working on a girls basketball team. I would have people ask me what we were hoping for, and for the first time I would tell them that the gender didn't matter to us, we just wanted a healthy baby and uneventful pregnancy.  I could finally say I didn't care what the gender was and truly mean it. Now fast-forward to July, my wife went to the ultra-sound with her mom and as usual with this summer, I just wasn't able to get off work to meet her at the ultra-sound. However she had the tech put the gender into an envelope and seal it so her and I could open it together at dinner before I went to school for the night.
As we finally met up for dinner, just the two of us, my wife hands me the envelope so I could open it. As I open it and flip the picture over, the first word I see was "IT'S A BOY!!" I'm pretty sure my heart stop for a moment and I had to read it again for it to finally sink in.  In that moment I can definitely say I have felt pure joy that only comes from God.  If we weren't in a public setting I'm pretty sure I would have cried, especially since I was already tearing up.

So there you have it, finally we are having a boy, and I think this story just shows that God is faithful when we are faithful to him.  I'm excited about having a boy, but in all honesty the true glory belongs to God. Till next time.

J

You have granted me life and lovingkindness; And Your care has preserved my spirit. - Job 10:12