Well hello readers of this blog. If you got to this page on accident, then I advise you to leave now. If you decide to continue on, well I warned you. I have never considered myself a blogger before, nor will I ever consider myself a blogger, I figure this would be a means for me to help get my thoughts straight. For those of you who know me, and we haven't talked in a long time, just know I haven't forgotten about you and my hectic journey is getting closer to being finished. For those who don't know me, well hello then my name is Jonathan. You can refer to me as J or Mullow if you would like.
A little about me if you don't know me, or a catch up session if we haven't talked in awhile. I have a wonderful and beautiful wife who some how tolerates me everyday when I am home. I also have two beautiful daughters that are the light of my eyes. Currently I maintain a full time construction job as well as a full time school schedule, so needless to say I don't have a lot of time. I am a Christian and there will probably be future posts regarding my faith. Actually most of my posts will probably relate back to my Faith in Christ one way or another. I don't mean to offend anyone so don't take offense. I am not here to argue with anyone about it either. Just know my faith is the most important thing in my life. If you ever want to talk about it I would be more than willing to chat about it. Maybe my trials and lessons that I have learned will help someone who needs it.
So why blogging you ask? I have asked that question for the last year for awhile now. Lets just say I am feeling called by God to write a blog. If any of you know me really well you know that I am an introvert. I also don't voice my thoughts all that much either, my wife can attest to how I will take my time answering a question just to make sure that I have my thoughts in order before I answer it. It drives her up the wall, but it is who I am. Seems like lately though it takes me longer since I have a billion things swirling around through my head.
Now to the point of this blog. Last year my wife and I went through some challenges with some more deeply impacting us than others, and the one thing I noticed about us is how much we both grew in our relationship with Christ. This year I have felt like I am in a rut, but I am not in a rut, if that makes since. For those of you who don't know what I am in school for, I am studying Electrical Engineering, which is a pretty intense degree in its own respect, I also go to a private school that is on a quarter semester system. So on top of the intense degree, all my classes are accelerated when compared to a traditional university. Now I am not looking for pity about going to school full time in a crazy degree. I knew the challenges it was going to present me and I embraced it with open arms.
Alright, now back to the matter at hand, this year I feel like I am being challenged on a whole new spiritual level and I don't know what to make of it. I feel like God is calling me to do even more with our church we go to and even more with other people's lives. This morning for example, I had some crazy dreams, which for me are pretty typical, and usually those dreams I forget about after being up for a little bit, but this dream was bugging me and I could not get this dream out of my head. Thankfully I was rained out of work today which was a blessing considering I needed to finish my take home test and lab for my class tonight. Well after I got home from being rained out I told my wife I was going over to my parents house since they are out of town and I can hopefully not have any distractions. Except my dream kept bugging me.
Now I am not going to get into the details of this dream, but all you need to know was I felt so convicted that this person need help in someway, that as soon as I got to my parents house I just prayed to God for clarity in the situation. Well in that process I was drawn to read Romans 7. Which is a wonderful chapter in seeing our sin and how we fulfill God's law through Christ. Verse 15 really stuck out to me. It says " For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." Rom 7:15 ESV. Then it struck me that I have been ignoring God's pushes for me to do what he wants me to do. After I read Romans 7 and meditated on it I spent the next hour praying a lot of things, Now I don't know if that person in my dream needed prayer or not, but what I do know is not to ignore God's nudges at our heart to do his will.
Well I hope I didn't bore any of you, and I am thankful you suffered through my rambling on. I might get the hang of this blog stuff yet. Till the next one.
J
"Yet not what I will, but what you will" - Mark 14:36b
